oh wow

So... NYE sucked ass, I cried uncontrollably for much of the evening and felt better only after I talked to Adam on the phone and heard how his evening was. At least one of us got to have fun. I have already decided, I WILL NOT be in TN for NYE next year. I will be in MA with Adam and will ring in my first legal New Year the right way. Geeez. So then, I got in a huge fight with my mom and made her cry on New Years Day, I was lied to, taken advantage of, and forced to rearrange my day and my plans because "shit happens" and she didn't want to come home yet. Yes, they stayed out again ALL fUCKING night. The only thing my mother said to me when I dropped Jaelyn off, because I was going out with Amber, was "Are you coming home tonight?" I said I didn't know but that I had packed a bag to sleep over. "Well, I think we need to talk" she says. Well you can take whatever you have to say and shove it up your... never mind. Obviously I was pissed. I did, in fact, stay at Amber's and did not come home until dinner time on Monday night. I was asked not only to buy pizza (which I had eaten for lunch) but I was also asked to bake cookies for the family at 11 at night. Then my mom and I "talked" which consisted of her screaming at me while I said "Are you going to let me defend myself or not?" I made her cry when she told me to apologize and I asked why. We both made our points and why should I have to be the one to apologize? I made plans around hers and she took advantage of me and lied to me. I thought she should apologize. In the end, neither of us did. I am so tired of being at home. I am trying to keep myself really busy these next few days so that it will pass by a little quicker. Today= lunch with Kitty, the afternoon with Ellen, and maybe dinner with Ellen and BrandonTomorrow=?? I hope that we can go see Kevin tomorrow afternoon so I can check up on him and Jaelyn can get her hair cut. I think Amber will want to go over to Amanda's so that everyone can say bye before I leave. Thursday= laundry and packingFriday= interviews 8am-7pm, leaving for ATL around 8Saturday= a day with Dad. Carl is in Tampa. I have to go to bed killer early since I have an 8:15a flight to BOS. Sunday= the day my dreams come true. I'll be back in my baby's arms! I'm so freakin' excited!!I can't wait to go. I love my family, but this has been the worst vacation of my life. Gah!