home sweet home

Oh, home sweet home. Fighting with parents, getting guilt trips from my sister, and sitting back and watching my best friend make a HUGE mistake. Let's discuss...stepdad's an asshole, mom's depressed -- these make me want to leave home and never come back... so I leave home for a few days and then come back. jaelyn starts acting badly and blames it on "missing sissy" when she gets in trouble. Mom and dad throw it in my face. when I'm not at home, I am at Amber's. She is planning to get married to Clay a man with whom she is not in love. She loves Jimmy who will not marry her but is tired of being a single mom, so she's willing to marry Clay. Clay is AMAZING. He is so sweet and sincere. He thinks the world of Amber, is willing to buy her a new house (5 bedroom, 3 bathroom) and a very expensive engagement ring, is fully in love with her, and she made him cry today when she told him that she doesn't want to get married anymore. As Adam has said, somebody's gonna get hurt. I'm home for the first time in days and it's okay for now, but that's only because my parents and sister are already in bed. I'm having lunch with Ellen tomorrow, lunch with Charlotte on Friday, maybe going to see Amber Friday night, babysitting Saturday night because I want to spend NYE alone if I can't be with Adam, shopping Monday with Amber, lunch with Kitty Tuesday, lunch with MJ Wednesday, packing Thursday, interviews Friday, then back to Atlanta and one day closer to being with my sweetie again. I miss him soooo much! I can't stand this city much longer. I need Hopedale back!! I need a happy family back! I can't wait until Marsha's birthday so I can see everybody again. Le Sigh. One week down, one and a half weeks to go. I'm getting there...