legality rocks!

I so just got my drivers license. It rocks. That is all!

legality rocks!

I so just got my drivers license. It rocks. That is all!

home sweet home

Oh, home sweet home. Fighting with parents, getting guilt trips from my sister, and sitting back and watching my best friend make a HUGE mistake. Let's discuss...stepdad's an asshole, mom's depressed -- these make me want to leave home and never come back... so I leave home for a few days and then come back. jaelyn starts acting badly and blames it on "missing sissy" when she gets in trouble. Mom and dad throw it in my face. when I'm not at home, I am at Amber's. She is planning to get married to Clay a man with whom she is not in love. She loves Jimmy who will not marry her but is tired of being a single mom, so she's willing to marry Clay. Clay is AMAZING. He is so sweet and sincere. He thinks the world of Amber, is willing to buy her a new house (5 bedroom, 3 bathroom) and a very expensive engagement ring, is fully in love with her, and she made him cry today when she told him that she doesn't want to get married anymore. As Adam has said, somebody's gonna get hurt. I'm home for the first time in days and it's okay for now, but that's only because my parents and sister are already in bed. I'm having lunch with Ellen tomorrow, lunch with Charlotte on Friday, maybe going to see Amber Friday night, babysitting Saturday night because I want to spend NYE alone if I can't be with Adam, shopping Monday with Amber, lunch with Kitty Tuesday, lunch with MJ Wednesday, packing Thursday, interviews Friday, then back to Atlanta and one day closer to being with my sweetie again. I miss him soooo much! I can't stand this city much longer. I need Hopedale back!! I need a happy family back! I can't wait until Marsha's birthday so I can see everybody again. Le Sigh. One week down, one and a half weeks to go. I'm getting there...

at home

So, I have been home for less than 72 hours and I am ready to leave now. Came home wicked late on Wed night, slept in on Thursday, birthday celebrations Thursday night, fight with mom, left home for a while without telling mom, slept in Friday, out to Nanny's Friday night... then it happened. My mom and dad asked me to babysit so they could go out for a bit. When I get up at 7:15 this morning (after not sleeping all night) they still aren't home. I call mom, yell at her, they tell me they'll be home soon... 4 hours later they finally walk in. My mother says, "If you think you need to go out today, you can. Just don't be gone all night. It is Christmas Eve you know..." Oh no you didn't. Yeah, unlike SOME people I know, I will be home tonight, just like every other night. New Years is coming up. Bryce, Amanda, Meggen, JR, Amber, Brandy, Clay, Jimmy, and all the other red necks want me to come spend the night with them getting drunk... I want to stay home. But I know if I stay home, my parents will take off again and I don't want a repeat of last night. DAMNIT... I wanna go back to Wellesley. This place bites ass. Checking ticket prices for this week... wonder what a one way ticket will cost me. Everywhere I look, I see the happy couples and I want nothing more than to strangle every single one of them. Damn you people.

excuse me?!?

Now remember, I don't cure much... unless I'm really upset. This wonderful entry is in response to a post on sofrlowi's journal (and I sent this to her in an email as well)...I can politely lick your asshole? That's a pretty bitchy thing to say. I must admit, you're not quite the person I once thought you were. You're busting your balls to reconcile? I was the one who JUMPED at the opportunity to hang out with you for dinner that night and tried my damnedest not to mention me and Adam because I knew you wouldn't want to hear it. Look, I have already apologized for missing your party. I feel wicked bad, okay? Do I need to apologize again? I asked when you were leaving so that I might be able to see you a time or two before you go. I'm sorry this semester didn't go so great for you but there is no reason to target me. I have done nothing to deserve a load of your shit. You want to be friends again? You pushed me so far away this summer and I must admit that your bitchy little livejournal doesn't help. I didn't blow you off on Friday I forgot. Genuinely... I was stressed and no one ever mentioned it again until we ran into Melissa in Boston on Saturday and she said something about it... Reading that shit hurts. I have NEVER said anything like that about you and I never will, no matter how much you piss me off. I thought you were so much more mature than posting shitty comments about me on an internet forum... way to be a grown up. I don't know what else to say to you Nicole. Whatever... feel free to call me, but please don't expect me to do so. I apologized, I feel bad, and I truly wanted to hang out with you in January before you leave, but if you're going to talk shit about me when I genuinely did nothing, I don't know what I can do. My hands are tied. Good luck with the rest of your work, and good luck in Spain. I truly hope you have a blast.

sigh

I am getting ready to go shopping and try to buy the last of my Christmas presents. Last night I had to say goodbye to Allegra for what could be one of the last times I see her. She's leaving for Italy in less than a month, won't be at Wellesley this Spring and is considering taking next fall off. I was about ready to cry outside the little Italian bakery we went to for dessert. :( Good luck to her in all her travels and I will truly miss her more than anyone will ever know. As for last night, things got a little awkward. Adam and Kevin and I were walking form the car to the restaurant when we heard someone scream "ADAM!!" We turn around and who is it but Melissa. You know, the ex-girlfriend that I am greatly intimidated by. All because one night last year she told Nicole when they were drunk that she had Adam wrapped around her little finger and if she wanted to fuck him all she'd have to do is name the place and time... yeah, that ex-girlfriend. She seems really cool and really nice but I couldn't help but feel awkward when she ran up to the three of us and proceeded to hug ALL THREE OF US!! I've never met her and she hugged me. Now, I have no problem whatsoever with that, but it caught me off guard and was more than a little weird. Of all the places in Boston/the North End, she was sitting on the sidewalk we were walking down. What a coincidence. I apparently got really quiet when we walked away and I didn't mean to. It didn't "get to me" but it was just weird. Oh well, I'm moving on! Time to shop!! :)