bored

Bored out of my mind. I've been at work for 7.5 hours and I am ready to kill myself. I get off in 25 min. I am totally in the mood to go see a movie tonight and I think the winner may be Brokeback Mountain... but I need a date. I sent Nicole a message to see if she wants to hang out but I have heard nothing. Adam is in Hopedale (and probably doesn't wanna see the gay cowboy movie) and I don't think anyone else with a car is around. :( I'm sad now. I am in the mood to go out to dinner and go to the movie but I am beginning to wonder whether or not it will happen tonight. Oh well. Here's to pure boredom!

Grades!

So, grades are in! I passed! As I was fully expecting no higher than a D in my Bio class, I was pleasantly surprised when I received a satisfactory grade. The rest of my grades were MUCH better than Bio (as I had expected) but I will live with my around average grades for another semester. Shove it up your ass Wellesley. You and your below perfect grades can go fuck yourself! :) Back on campus and ready to die already. I get off work in 8 minutes to return to a frigid dorm room with no cable or food. Here's to fun times! I may have to call Adam re: grocery shopping. We'll see. Kisses to all!Oh, and p.s., sorry about the cornflakes Kate. Hope future LJ posts are less grotesque than the last! What can I say? I'm in love!! <3

In 2005, I...

So, I found the list on Nicole's LJ and I must complete it...In 2005, I...{x} broke a promise.{x} made a new friend.{x} fell in love{ } fell out of love{ } done something you swore never to do{x} lied{x} stole{ } went behind your parents back{x} cried over a broken heart{x} disappointed someone close{x} hidden a secret{x} pretended to be happy{ } got arrested{x} kissed in the rain{ } slept under the stars{ } kept your new years resolution{x} forgot your new years resolution{x} met someone who changed your life{ } met one of your idols{x} changed your outlook on life{x} sat home all day doing nothing{x} pretended to be sick{ } left the country{ } almost died{ } gave up something important to you{ } lost something expensive{x} learned something new about yourself{x} tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it{x} made a change in your life{X} found out who your true friends were.{x} made a total fool of yourself{x} met great people{x} enjoyed your year to the fullest no matter how weird, crazy, stupid, or abnormal you looked while doing itWow! I left a l ot to be desired! Oh well. Here's to a bigger, better, and happier New Year (although I don't think I could be any happier or more in love with Adam!! Yay! :) 3.5 more days!!

oh wow

So... NYE sucked ass, I cried uncontrollably for much of the evening and felt better only after I talked to Adam on the phone and heard how his evening was. At least one of us got to have fun. I have already decided, I WILL NOT be in TN for NYE next year. I will be in MA with Adam and will ring in my first legal New Year the right way. Geeez. So then, I got in a huge fight with my mom and made her cry on New Years Day, I was lied to, taken advantage of, and forced to rearrange my day and my plans because "shit happens" and she didn't want to come home yet. Yes, they stayed out again ALL fUCKING night. The only thing my mother said to me when I dropped Jaelyn off, because I was going out with Amber, was "Are you coming home tonight?" I said I didn't know but that I had packed a bag to sleep over. "Well, I think we need to talk" she says. Well you can take whatever you have to say and shove it up your... never mind. Obviously I was pissed. I did, in fact, stay at Amber's and did not come home until dinner time on Monday night. I was asked not only to buy pizza (which I had eaten for lunch) but I was also asked to bake cookies for the family at 11 at night. Then my mom and I "talked" which consisted of her screaming at me while I said "Are you going to let me defend myself or not?" I made her cry when she told me to apologize and I asked why. We both made our points and why should I have to be the one to apologize? I made plans around hers and she took advantage of me and lied to me. I thought she should apologize. In the end, neither of us did. I am so tired of being at home. I am trying to keep myself really busy these next few days so that it will pass by a little quicker. Today= lunch with Kitty, the afternoon with Ellen, and maybe dinner with Ellen and BrandonTomorrow=?? I hope that we can go see Kevin tomorrow afternoon so I can check up on him and Jaelyn can get her hair cut. I think Amber will want to go over to Amanda's so that everyone can say bye before I leave. Thursday= laundry and packingFriday= interviews 8am-7pm, leaving for ATL around 8Saturday= a day with Dad. Carl is in Tampa. I have to go to bed killer early since I have an 8:15a flight to BOS. Sunday= the day my dreams come true. I'll be back in my baby's arms! I'm so freakin' excited!!I can't wait to go. I love my family, but this has been the worst vacation of my life. Gah!

legality rocks!

I so just got my drivers license. It rocks. That is all!

legality rocks!

I so just got my drivers license. It rocks. That is all!

home sweet home

Oh, home sweet home. Fighting with parents, getting guilt trips from my sister, and sitting back and watching my best friend make a HUGE mistake. Let's discuss...stepdad's an asshole, mom's depressed -- these make me want to leave home and never come back... so I leave home for a few days and then come back. jaelyn starts acting badly and blames it on "missing sissy" when she gets in trouble. Mom and dad throw it in my face. when I'm not at home, I am at Amber's. She is planning to get married to Clay a man with whom she is not in love. She loves Jimmy who will not marry her but is tired of being a single mom, so she's willing to marry Clay. Clay is AMAZING. He is so sweet and sincere. He thinks the world of Amber, is willing to buy her a new house (5 bedroom, 3 bathroom) and a very expensive engagement ring, is fully in love with her, and she made him cry today when she told him that she doesn't want to get married anymore. As Adam has said, somebody's gonna get hurt. I'm home for the first time in days and it's okay for now, but that's only because my parents and sister are already in bed. I'm having lunch with Ellen tomorrow, lunch with Charlotte on Friday, maybe going to see Amber Friday night, babysitting Saturday night because I want to spend NYE alone if I can't be with Adam, shopping Monday with Amber, lunch with Kitty Tuesday, lunch with MJ Wednesday, packing Thursday, interviews Friday, then back to Atlanta and one day closer to being with my sweetie again. I miss him soooo much! I can't stand this city much longer. I need Hopedale back!! I need a happy family back! I can't wait until Marsha's birthday so I can see everybody again. Le Sigh. One week down, one and a half weeks to go. I'm getting there...